Day One :
As I thought, i could forget you. Oh the foolishness. The fact that i could not was oblivious to me. And thus, i suffer in self pity. Mocking myself for the heart shattering moments i have endured. I ask myself, is it really worth it? Is it worth going through the pain every time you seem to reject my presence? Is it worth not knowing the truth behind the foggy clouds of mystery that you conjure to me? Is it worth having to take a medicine that literally kills you every step of the way it cures you?
Yes.
As i was completing my homework, fully focused on my goal ; To be the top in the corporate game, and to shape the future engineer of the nation. Following the laws of physics, and object which possesses large momentum would not stop unless a much larger opposing force stops it in its tracks. You did just that. The moment i saw your face, the sweet look on your cheeks, your beautiful hair, your mesmerizing eyes and so much more i would not be able to finish. Your eyes, ultimately it was your eyes. You could stop a train with those. I was distracted, not just that. Emotions, memories - Good and Bad suddenly rushed to occupy all the space in my mind. I could not continue, the emotions overcame my will, my focus. I could not focus. Blood circulation felt faster and faster following the increasing rate of my heartbeat. I was overjoyed to see you, yet, I was still a sad and confused man.
From what you said a few months ago, we had a chance. What in God's name happen to that chance? We were more than comfortable speaking to each other. As for now? You did not seem to even welcome my Hello. My heart, suspending from a thirty-story building fell in an instance. All the emotions became stronger and stronger, making it, Unbearable.
I would do anything to have you. To see your face just, for one more second. The way you walked away? It felt like light being obscured by darkness. Until you see light, no more.
I miss you.
